Updated 7/7/09 -- posting in this journal is on hiatus until further notice.
My new journal can be found at http://www.moonlightmanifesto.com/

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My journal is primarily friends only. If you would like to be on my list and read my locked updates, please drop me a comment below and I'll probably add you if I already know you. I write a good amount of personal stuff here, so I prefer to keep my list fairly small.

About me: I'm a freelance graphics and webdesigner, computer geek, music lover and fangirl. I love all kinds of music, Lord of the Rings and American Idol and I'm usually preoccupied with various things relating to pop culture. My interests are too numerous to fully list, but I'm open to just about anything and love to explore new things. I maintain several major websites and I love just about anything having to do with computers.

About this journal: I've kept this journal for nearly a decade, though I routinely clear out much of the outdated stuff. I post everything from deep, personal reflection and day to day life to fictional writing, graphics posts and chatter about my various fandoms...pretty much whatever I'm feeling at the time. I tend to be more than a little verbose, horribly sappy at times and obsess like a fiend over the things I love most, but I try to keep things interesting.

Other than occasional commenting, I think I'm going to take a break from LJ for a while. I used to post here constantly and these days, I can barely come up with something once a week if I'm lucky. My heart's just not in it right now, particularly since the majority of staying in touch I do with anyone anymore seems to happen in other places. So many folks have moved on and those on my friends list are either people I communicate with in other ways or don't communicate with at all. LJ is just feeling a little deserted these days and I don't have the motivation to keep it up when I have so many other things going on.

I'll get back to posting sooner or later, I'm sure. But for now, there are plenty of other places to find me if you'd like to stay in touch.

Why is it so easy to fire off an angry e-mail when I'm too hurt and upset to think straight... yet so difficult to send one about apology and forgiveness, love and understanding? Why don't I hesitate to send things I know I'll regret, yet sit here for days wondering whether to send words I do mean as if they're the ones I should be thinking twice about?

( Introspection and clarity... and getting past my past )

... since I made any fan videos. I think the last one was a year ago, right after David Cook won American Idol.
I should make more time for it like I used to. I always forget how fun and relaxing it is and how much it inspires my creativity, just arranging and blending music and video clips. Rather time consuming, but usually very soothing.

Not so much with this one though, it just gave me a raging libido instead. I think this would qualify less as some innocent fan video and more gratuitous porn. Good thing too, that's exactly what I was going for. heh

I'm really liking the results, even though I'd like them a lot better if YouTube wasn't so notorious for butchering quality. The HQ version is still beautiful though.

( Sexy... )